I am actually facing many problems lately . . . in family, friends, and academics.

Sigh. . . but I can't involve my problem with family to school and vice versa and same with friends ^^; ugghh . . . must control  x_X

The weight of those problems are actually pretty heavy. I have exploded . . . inside. But I tried my best to remain my calm in the outside, and was pretty successful. 'coz if not I'll be punching somebody already.

And surprisingly . . . though the problems now are heavier than usual . . . I was able to recover and control it fine. Probably I was already prepared for them . . .or already used to them.

So I'm pretty much okay now. I can answer calmly and smile even if my head's filled with the problems I'm currently facing.

To take advantage of that state, I continued to do my part for the business case study to be submitted tomorrow. I was online at Yahoo messenger in case there are important messages. My status was something like this: " I am actually NOT okay. Don't be stupid enough to ask me if I'm okay. Please pm only important messages. If not, consider yourself CRUSHED. I'm falling from a cliff. I need a savior" then beside it was a busy icon.

Later . . . I got a message saying: "Why did you go home late?"<-- OBVIOUSLY because of school. but actually I arrived home around 6:30 pm. Just slept after helping out my bro, the dinner, then internet. Does being late in going online follow that I was also late in arriving home? Geez! I also have a life besides online life ya know!

Another says: "Please join conference." <-- from a High school schoolmate who is not really close to me and I doubt anything relevant will be discussed like the previous conferences we had. T_T AAARRRGGGHHH!!!!!!!!!!! I have classes but they don't so be considerate damnit!

Another says: "Are you busy?"<-- SO FREAKIN' OBVIOUS!!! with that stats and icon?? OFCOURSE!!!!!! you may not trust the icon but trust the stats!!!!!

And yet another says: "When will you not be busy?"<--- GAAAAHHH! CAN'T THIS BE ASKED SOME OTHER TIME????? You're starting an unimportant conversation!!!!

GRRRRRRRRRAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!! STUPIDPEOPLEASKINGSTUPIDQUESTIONSTOABUSYPERSONWHOISNOTEVENOKAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It's true that my busy icons are sometimes not true ^^; . . . .but the status is true!!! T_T CAN'T THEY FREAKIN' READ????? AND THEIR QUESTIONS ARE SO FREAKIN' OBVIOUS AND TOTALLY NOT WORTHY TO ASK TO A BUSY PERSON!!!!!!!!!

I'm glad nobody asked "Are you okay?" 'Coz that would be worth killing T_T 

I'll also be angrier if someone has ranted to me about his life or problems. SHEESH! LIKE YOU'RE THE ONLY ONE WHO HAS PROBLEMS!!!!! I lend my ear to listen to other people's problems because I'm concerned and am willing to help . . . BUT NOT WHEN I'M IN THIS STATE!!!!!!!! Grrrrrrrrraaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrr!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Not everyone who pmed me was like that though but to the annoying ones . . . GGRRRAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THEY SHOULD SHUT UP!!!!!!!! I don't hate them but sending me such stupid questions make me curse them!!!!! GRRRRRAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!







Yes, I was cursing when I saw those messages. Thanks to them . . . . my work was interrupted (it's okay to interrupt if it's an emergency to you, like asking me something about a project due very soon or asking help, but I don't consider those darn messages emergency!!!! If someone's busy, don't ask the obvious!!!!!) though I'm already done with my part for the document to be submitted tomorrow (It's a group work) . . . .I can't sleep because I'm so annoyed!!!! And it's now like 3 am and my class is around 9 am and we have an exam on our 2nd class and . . . GAAAAAHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!

THANKS FOR RUINING MY NIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!! T_T I HATE it when people ruin my mood T_T har har har

but sigh . . . maybe I'm overreacting over a simple thing. When I was in the process of calming down, I realized that to what I'm angry about isn't really a big deal compare to my problems . . . .but still . . .

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T_T They are serving as triggers for me to explode!!!! T_T I dunno anymore . . .I don't care anymore!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sorry for ranting uneccessary stuff. I feel like getting angry over a stupid thing. Probably because I've got so many things in my head. I hope I'll be okay tomorrow once I get to sleep. haaaaayyy . . ..